Friday, December 29, 2006

Blogging Catharsis and KLove

Some say blogs are cathartic... but I don't know about that. How can one truly let go of one's troubles, one's feelings on a forum as public as this? I don't believe there is anyone among us who is unaffected by public opinion... the perception of us in the eyes of our friends and enemies alike is irrefutably important. Often, the things we think we feel, say we want, etc... are actually influenced by how we wish to be perceived, the chosen image we wish to project.

Also, what of privacy? Of course this is an obvious dilemma, but really, how does one find the trade-off between blog-catharsis and privacy? Do we strive to be as honest as possible? What if we offend someone in the process? Surely we all have things, feelings, thoughts that we do not want others to figure out?

But all these self-doubts and self-censorships must also undermine the process of catharsis, for how can one truly let go of all troubles, aches and pains when one is held back? Is there any point in public catharsis at all?

But then, writing about one's troubles in private hardly seems worthwhile. You are merely transferring your thoughts onto paper. If you can write well then they shouldn't be much changed and reading them shouldn't be much different to thinking them.

Are people who blog about their problems really crying out for attention? Is it a response they are looking for? Are the problems they present to the outside world their true set of problems... or is it modified to elicit a desired response?

Well yes, I'll admit... these thoughts have arisen because I am troubled... about a couple of things. One in particular I guess. But I have no intention of writing a cryptic-sounding blog post that alludes to my troubles but only gives enough detail so that people can guess the general cause... nor am I going to write an angry tirade about something or someone that is getting me down. Neither of these achieve anything, short of worrying readers... haha, who am I kidding...

On a happier note... Kuala Lumpur was fantastic. Thanks so much for a great trip guys and I'm sad I couldn't stay longer because still more people to see, more fun to be had, more food to be eaten... thanks to Ting Chong for housing me for the most part, driving me around and putting up with me; to Emily for housing me for a night, lending me her towel and pillowcase (neither of which I washed... bad Alex), introducing me to Body Pump (i'm going again soon!) and being generally lovely; and to everyone else that hung out with me, drove me around or just said hello. I love Malaysians, it's official. :-)